meditate , hypnotize
anything to take it from my mind , but it won't go .
anything to take it from my mind , but it won't go .
no matter how hard i try , some things are just too hard to let go .
it is exhausting ...
having something stuck in your mind every now and then
no matter how hard you force yourself to get over it
it just doesn't seem to fade even a little
sometimes i wish i can suffer a repression or something ...
no matter how hard you suppress the thoughts in your conscious mind , they just seem to hide into the subconscious proportion and come crawling out messing with your mind at time intervals.
i'm a sentimental person i would say ,
i hold on to things that i cherish too hard ,
often having a hard time to let it go when it's no longer my possession ...
some people , some past , some things
definitely molded me into a better person .
and by the perception of people in defining "better person" , it simply means that particular individual became better in hiding the negative feelings by faking a smile .
I am much happier lately .
Nourished in James' love .
But some negative elements are still haunting me ... some scars just won't heal ...
who would i be if James didn't walked into my life ?
what would i have became if he didn't walk me through those tough time ?
I love him , I do .
I would marry him if fate is kind enough to make him mine legally .
because i can ...
because we can ...
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